Monday, January 28, 2008

11:26 PM
day28 of 2008

Noticing that I always update my blog on dates during my Intro To Film Quiz, I'm here again, not because I had the quiz today but it has really been some time since I have last updated.

Swinging in between wanting to be happy that I managed to pass the overall quiz results and the fact that I actually failed today's quiz really got me depressed as to why am I even thinking of such things. Results may matter, but its that really all? Felt that in this sem, results has kind of been much too high a priority for me that I loose touch of my main motivation. Wanting to give all glory to God. Giving my best? Not really. Pride. Just how much can "saving face" cost? Lots actually.

Being God's Child. Upholding His Name. Its hard, but I really want to do so. Doing do means surrending all of my life to Him. Even parts that I do not wish to, parts that I do not wish for others to know. At times, I do wonder why God still love me despite the fact that I have disappointed Him uncountless times, and tearing because of me. Come on, God tearing for You. How much just certain actions in my life disappoints Him. How much certain actions just draw us furthur. But yet, when I'm willing to turn back, You're always there with open arms, waiting for me, and better, running to me. A King.... Running... for me...

Want to thank God for still loving me despite of it all and placing people into my life that loves me. People like Alvin, Congs, Jia, Shuz, Daniel, Liangs, my caregroups, my team...
Went out with Alvin last week after realizing how much we have not been meeting up cause of our busy schedules since the start of 2008. Managed to find some time to go out together last sun and wed... Lets just say, I really want to thank God for placing him in my life. Like how often God works in the most creative way in our lives, I really see how God works creatively in our lives and how much He has planned for us, from how we know one another, how we became close caregroup mates, how we became Spiritual Buddies.... Coincidence? Nah. Dun think so. Its too much of a coincidence for it to be a coincidence. Thanks Buddy!

*I know its hard, it has been long, but God, I really want to change. Let me Your power and Your spirit in me as I go through this. Help me change for You, help me shine Your light, help me reflect Your love. Let me be your city of light. Let me be Yours. Work through me... Work in me... Help me to love....

+ AMEN

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

11:28 AM


Doing what you love...

+ AMEN

Monday, January 21, 2008

6:36 PM
When God Ran

Philips, Craig & Dean

Almighty God, the great I am
Immovable rock, omnipotent, powerful, awesome Lord
Victorious warrior, commanding King of Kings
Mighty conqueror, and the only time
the only time I ever saw Him run

Was when He ran to me, He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest, said “My son’s come home again”
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice He said,
“Son do you know I still love you?”
He caught me by surprise when God ran

The day I left home I knew I’d broken His heart
And I wondered then if things could ever be the same
Then one night I remembered His love for me
And down that dusty road ahead I could see
It was the only time – it was the only time I ever saw Him run

And then He ran to me, He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest, said “My son’s come home again”
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice He said,
“Son do you know I still love you?”
He caught me by surprise as He brought me to my knees
When God ran – I saw Him run to me

I was so ashamed, all alone and so far away
But now I know He’s been waiting for this day

I saw Him run to me, He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest, said “My son’s come home again”
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice I felt His love for me again

He ran to me, He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest, said “My son’s come home again”
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice He said, “Son”, He called me Son
He said, “Son do you know I still love you?”
He ran to me and then I ran to Him
When God ran


+ AMEN

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

2:10 AM
5 Loaves & Two Fishes

Corrinne May

A little boy of thirteen
was on his way to school
He heard a crowd of people laughing
and he went to take a look

Thousands were listening
to the stories of one man
He spoke with such wisdom,
even the kids could understand

The hours passed so quickly
the day turned to night
Everyone was hungry
but there was no food in sight

The boy looked in his lunchbox
at the little that he had
He wasn't sure what good it'd do
there were thousands to be fed

But he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus
the kindness in His smile
and the boy cried out
with the trust of a child
he said:"

Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
to feed them all"

I often think about that boy
when I'm feeling small
land I worry that the work I do
means nothing at all

But every single tear I cry
is a diamond in His hands
and every door that slams in my face
I will offer up in prayer

So I'll give you every breath that I have
Oh Lord, you can work miracles
All that you need is my "Amen"

Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender

Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
I hope it's not too small
I trust in you
I trust in you

Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
no gift is too small

+ AMEN

Monday, January 14, 2008

1:42 AM
Family Love

Went to pray for Jerel before he leaves for New Zealand tml after spt. Went to send puayy off to Boston at the airport on saturday.

How do we define family love?

Help my dad settle some income statement thinggy. Money? or Family?

*BAHHHH. x.x

+ AMEN

Monday, January 07, 2008

2:03 PM
Thanksgiving

Ok. Once again, I'm here to present my thanksgiving for my results. AS USUAL, I failed as a student to actually prepare before hand for my Into To Film Quiz, and as per normal, I only manage to study for the quiz on my way to school, only this time different, more pressure was upon myself as I skipped class for that topic due to camp. Waited like ages for the bus while trying to comfort myself that there will be bus service as the interchange have no 170 at all while praying for God to have the bus come as fast as possible. Got onto the bus and scanned through the whopping two chapters trying to remember as many thing as possible.

Despite all these late revision, God never failed to bless me with results that are beyond the effort that was placed into studying for this quiz. I got another 6/10 for this quiz, totaling my total quiz score to 19/30, which means I got 63% for my quiz so far. Very good considering the amount of time spent into studying for the quiz. Estimated that I will need to score a 10/10 for my next and final quiz to push my total score up to a 72.5%.

Haha. Anyway, I got kind of result frenzy and went to calculate my current standing for some of my modules. So yea, heres the estimated results:
Intro To Film - 70%
Contemp Issues - approx A- grade.

Yea. Thank God once again =D

+ AMEN

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

1:18 AM
401th Post & Year 2008

Well, a good new year starting with my 401th posts in this blog. I'm here to do some justice to the blog by kind of posting all the events that I have yet to post and that is still in my memory. Realized that it has really been some time since I last posted something proper.

Anyway, year 2007 is somewhat a year where God really showed his presence and comfort into my life. A year where the ups & downs are somewhat different from the previous years. 2007 marked several milestones in my life, my 601 days as a EastDee brother, my first transfer to another district since I first stepped in to church, the first time I had a shepherd looking over me for more then one camp, taking over the ministry, etc. God never failed to pour out his blessings and grace over my life...

X29 camp was a camp where God open doors for me to speak into the lives of many through what I'm doing in the ministry and me simply being a brother to most of the people around me. God moved in my heart this time round in a more peaceful manner and I didn't come back from camp feeling all pumped up and getting all excited, but more, I left Singapore Sports School with a peaceful assurance that God is always there for me, really, God really showed His faithfulness as I see him work in the lives of many; especially in the hearts of those around me. Camp as usual is chionging time, but really, through these chionging time, I really saw how much the people around me are willing to lend a helping hand, especially in those times where we are really really running out of time. The willingness of the people in the ministry also touched me a lot. And I guess, the team really had a breakthrough in terms of the desire to really seek God and using whatever they are doing as a worship for the Lord.

Camp has gone and Christmas is coming. I guess, I was a littl disappointed with myself and perhaps the heart of people, I am glad that God is working well in my family...


New Year's Day...
I was ramaging through all my post when I kinda got "emotional". ahha. For starters, this is the first new year that I am spending with my family out of the house and it is also the first time I'm not celeberating it with any church people ever since I came in. I could still remember my first countdown where Diqiang piggy back me so that I'm able to watch the performance at Esplanade, haha, my first shepherd...

I came to realize once again how much I have grew in the Lord looking back at all my past 400 posts and how much I have matured as a being.

Somewhat however, I too came to realize how far I have fallen back in terms of my love for people. Though I still say that I do love people, I have came to realize that in a way, my heart's desire to really bring my close ones a step closer to God is no longer there. I remember how I will actually pray to step out of my comfort zone to try and get to know more of my family members better during family gatherings during CNY... Yea...

Yupp, just want to end this post here by thanking all those that have really been with me throughout my this 2 years + of walk with God and really guiding me through and having the patience to wait for me and getting me to grow in the Lord, although many a times, I may hurt most of you guys, you guys never gave up on me. God you never gave up on me. Thanks soo much...


Let 2008 be a year of exponential growth.

+ AMEN

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